I'm getting the '20' week ultrasound tomorrow morning. It's a little early, but apparently, a bit necessary. I'm not terribly worried; just convinced that this pregnancy is VERY much unlike my others. Here's the update...
From the beginning of this pregnancy, it's felt different. Perhaps it was because I was so shocked when I discovered the pregnancy. Maybe it's because I don't remember being so unbelievably exhausted with the others (I also wasn't raising 3 kids at the time). It could also be the emotional/stressed-out/guilt-ridden conscience I've had due to my fears and doubts about being able to handle everything that is happening in our family's life right now with the addition of a pregnancy. It may be the bleeding. I don't know.
My midwife has been phenomenal. I truly love and adore her. She "delivered" our third...but let He-Man really deliver, confident enough in the OBGYN training he took in grad-school AND doped me up with an epidural the minute I asked. During my first appointment, my unsuccessful attempt to mask the wreck that I was, was met with so much compassion and kindness. She knew exactly how to help me feel better, erased the fear and helped me to stop feeeling like such a jerk for being so apprehensive in the first place.
And based on a few minor questionable symptoms, we are going in for the sonogram tomorrow. I, as well as my midwife are not tremendously concerned, just feel the need to be cautious and are fairly certain we'll be able to determine the gender....yippeeee! I'll keep you posted...
8 comments:
I'm sorry you're having so much stress during your pregnancy. That is no good. Definately keep us updated. You'll do great tomorrow.
I'm excited for you ultrasound and pray that everything goes well. I didn't know this pregnancy has been so stressful for you!! I hope the bleeding stops and that you and the baby are healthy. Can't wait to hear about the gender!
I hope it's a boy or a girl. :-)
Reminds me of a silly movie quote where someone sees a couple's baby and remarks, "Cute baby! Boy or girl?" To which the father replies, "Gosh, I hope so!!" Dumb. But silly fun.
I hope you have a magical experience tomorrow! I just love ultrasounds. We will keep you and your baby in our prayers. Keep us posted!
Oooo, please post as soon as you know. I'll be checking frequently. I hope everything checks out okay. I find ultrasounds to be very calming.
Can't wait to hear the news. Boy or girl, but particularly crossing my fingers for "healthy and going well".
Love you.
We'll keep you in our prayers. We are so excited for you, and hope all goes well.
I hope everything is OK! Keep us posted.
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